Christmas was supposed to be VERY tight this past year. Indeed it was. I had already informed our children and family that they should not expect much, if anything, from us for Christmas. We're not in dire straits, granted, but we are determined not to go into more debt. Jade quit his second job back in August and we've been trying to be financially disciplined and obedient. At any rate...
I wrote the list of things I would get for our children for Christmas. It was tough. Each would get about three small things each. Shopping was torture because I like to buy stuff. Beautiful things were everywhere.
One night I went to meet my Dad to drop off Blythe and Owen with him. He got out of the car and met me with money in his hand. He said, "Here, Jenn, we want to buy Claire a laptop." I fell apart. I wanted to get that for her more than anything, but just wasn't able. God provided through my parents.
A couple of days later, a girl I've known since she was a teenager emailed me and said that she and her husband would like to buy some presents for my children for Christmas. Now, here's the deal. We have plenty. We don't need anything. I thought about how to respond to her email.
a) "Thank you for thinking of us, but we don't need anything." Pride intact, independence maintained.
b) "Thank you for thinking of us. We have all that we need. If there are some needy families in your area that you know of, please give them the presents. However, here are some things that my children have mentioned wanting for Christmas..." Pride trampled upon, dependence upon others on full display, and a possibility of seeing God do something cool.
I chose "b". My friend began mailing packages. Every day, new boxes would arrive at our home from the UPS guy, the FedEx guy and the mail lady. It was all so mysterious to the kids, especially to my 13-year old, who's smart enough to know that this was way more than "three small things each". I just kept telling her that God is very good and that He loves us very much.
Christmas day arrived. Here is a picture of our den with presents:
Here are some pictures of my children opening the "three small things each" that turned into a den full of things:
At the end of all this, my children wanted to know where all of these presents came from. At that moment, with five sets of curious, wondering eyes looking at me, I was able to tell them about the goodness, the mercy, the love, the GLORY of the God of the universe. The joy I felt spilled over in many tears as I told them how God provided an abundant Christmas for them.
And then, Jade asked me what was in the bag next to me. I looked down to see the most beautiful jewelry store bag sitting beside me. Inside was a ring box tied up in a bow. I opened it to find a beautiful sapphire ring.
God had given Jade an unexpected bit of money just before Christmas. I cried of course.
The Christian walk is not always full of presents, but it is always abundant. God is always good, even when things are tight and difficult. I will never, ever forget this Christmas or how God poured out his blessings on my children and me through the love of others.
God's economy is tough for us to take. We want to be independent and manage our own affairs. It's interesting, though, when you become a Christian, you become part of the body of Christ. Each part of the body is dependent upon the other. When one hurts, we all hurt. When one rejoices, we all rejoice.
Ron Blue said, "God's economy is so much more flexible, abundant, rich, and freeing than our own." When we surrender and obey, He provides. I have found that He usually chooses to provide through other people. When God provides, the giver gets blessed, the receiver gets blessed, and God gets glorified. My challenge to you and to myself is for us to open ourselves up to God's provision. Be obedient and see what the Lord will do.
I myself have this testimony,
"Our mouths were filled with laughter,
our tongues with songs of joy.
Then it was said among the nations,
'The LORD has done great things for them.'
The LORD has done great things for us,
and we are filled with joy." --Psalm 126:2-3